If there was ever a difference in the color of our skin
it didnt matter, we matched red then.
We chased our Vodka with
If you didnt earn my hate that night
I’d never have known hate in my life.
And with all my heart, I wanted to be right.
I wanted to watch you leave for the last time.
You have built your barrier with your back to me
And I’m half grateful on the other side
pretending I’m not crying.
Because I’m always crying.
And that berating, disengaged
Is like fucking NAILS
on a God damned CHALKBOARD,
your words make my skin crawl.
This is not the person I want to be.
This is not the person I want to give to you.
But you are not the you I want to receive me.